Well, well, well. Here I am.
Things have been crazy [as usual] thanks to my lovely jobs here [I made that website. Prepare to have your mind BLOWN] and here and school and some other projects I’m bullshitting about over drinks developing with my lovely friend Nathalie.
Also, last week I had the oinkporkswinepigflu! The body aches were horrifying and there … there was a mask involved.
Someone please explain to me how I am not married by now. Just look at the beauty and majesty in my eyes.
This was the most sick I’ve ever been in my young 23 years and I had to take almost an entire week off of work though school got taken care of. Apparently, I have straight A’s right now. So I got that goin’ for me.
Maybe I keep this mask on, now? Maybe it’s a winner?
In between school and working for fabulous Portlanders and pretending to be a writer, I’ve been reading a lot of books. This reminds me of my youth, when I read things for pleasure.
Hah. What a joyous experience it has been. But I don’t see it continuing once my thesis begins. Anyone have suggestions for new books? Please send them my way. If you send me a suggestion and I like it – I will send you a photo of me reading it. Maybe nude. I don’t know. NO promises.
Blogs also. I’ve been reading a lot of blogs. Food blogs, humor blogs, sad blogs, creative blogs. All of them. A lot of time and effort and, often, fear goes into being consistently funny on the internet.
I often think of stopping this. Of just focusing on my other projects and leaving Unclean Conscience behind.
I started this blog to keep myself writing and it’s given me more than that. I was contemplating all of this today, and then I got some not-so-great news.
One of my first loves, the first man who i think really loved me back, took his own life yesterday. I’ve spent this evening in a haze. Trying to figure out how normal people grieve. For some reason – I started thinking about what he would have told me to do.
Write.
I’ve decided to shift some things around and focus on some of my more immediate passions – which I’m very excited about.
I also plan to start spending at least one hour a day watching makeup tutorials on YouTube because they make me feel prettier. Also, I went to here and bought makeup for ONE DOLLAR. No lie. Please, go there. Buy things. Now.
For instance, it is 4am and instead of sleeping (thanks, insomnia), I’ve been watching this amazing woman (who I fully intend on stalking) and trimming my eyebrows. BECAUSE THESE ARE MY PRIORITIES, PEOPLE.
Also, Kiala is going to let me paint her face and dress her. She asked for it, actually. So it’s RESEARCH.
